Back to 2019, Britney Spears checked into a mental health facility. In the years since, the singer has argued in court documents that the stay, which took place amid her 13-year conservatorship, was against her will and a determining factor in her health. Now, as she approaches the one-year anniversary of ending her conservatorship, the singer is detailing the permanent nerve damage she says she suffered during her stay at the facility — which doubles as an unexpected explanation for her bubbly dance videos on Instagram .
“I’m dancing on time now Victoria…yeah…nerve damage on the right side of my body…no cure but God I guess…nerve damage sometimes happens when you don’t get enough oxygen to your brain…your brain literally shuts down,” she wrote Spears on Instagram, captioning a video of her dancing to Foster the People’s “Pumped Up Kicks.”
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While Spears doesn’t directly call out the medical facility, she says the nerve damage happened in “that place,” a phrase she’s used to referring to the hospital in the past.
He added: ‘In that place I couldn’t breathe when I was there…nerve damage causes numbness in parts of your body. I wake up 3 times a week in bed and my hands are completely numb… The nerves are tiny and it feels like pins and needles from the right side of my body shooting up to my neck and the part that hurts the most is my temple on my head my… it stings and it’s scary… for the past 3 years since I came out of this place, I’ve been in a mild unconscious state… I couldn’t deal with it. It was like it was too scary to be here.”
Spears went on to explain that while her dance videos on Instagram may seem strange to others, she “gave me existence and brought me here.”
“It’s funny though when I dance I don’t feel the pain,” she said. “It’s like my mind literally goes to a part of my inner child. And even though I don’t move like I used to… I really believe that my belief in it has given me strength.”
Although Spears didn’t go into much detail about her condition, the nerve damage is largely irreversible. Spears revealed that she is now taking medication to manage the lingering effects. “By the grace of God I finally found a drug where I can actually feel oxygen going to my brain and through my throat,” she explained. “My eyes are more open now and I can hold my head properly … I did a good job trying to get it out. Either way, I’m getting much better, I can breathe… I feel smarter because, Jesus, I can breathe now… either way, I’m breathing now and I can dance in time, Victoria… Sending all my love to each and every one of you… this is me this morning… i’m going to vacuum now!!!”
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